THROUGH THE VEIL OF THE LOOKING-GLASS
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01. Crossroads
3:20
On my road, I met a man
Fringe element lost in this haze
O thorn-crowned lamb not blessed in life
And I roam
On my road, made of sand
We both know our steps will never last
What's the point in lookin' for one's place?
So I roamI roam
Til angels bring me home
And I roam,
On crossroads all alongOn my road, I met a rebel
Filled with pride being reckless
Does he know that it caused his waste?
And I roam
On my road, life as a game
But there's a thing that will never change :
Keep walkin' again although you've failed.
So I roamI roam
On crossroads all along
Yeah, I roam,
Til the Devil takes my soul!On my road, the worst days left
Haunting memories of violence
Thinkin' it's time to break this shell
So I roam
On my road, a new start from scratch
Oh well I swear I won't look back
Will I find an aim to stay upright?
I roam!And I roam, I roam! I roam!
Among strangers I'm alone
So I roam, I roam!
May the angels leave me out.Music & lyrics by : Alyn White McHelly
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02. A long journey inward
3:46
I wake up in a haze
With doubts disturbing my brain
I feel such a hurt in my throat
Like the shame of not being someoneEvil through my threads
Such some poison in a vein
I'm stuffed by anger and hatred
Needles of despair I'll spreadAnd then silence leaves me alone
Until I want to ask my own
During a long journey inward
I saw it's not me who pull my wiresThere's above my head
Some God or Devil, I swear!
Ain't I dead enough to repent?
I'm ripped, torn apart, and blamedSharp, in my heart's place,
Found nothing more than a spade
As shards of mirror through Darkness,
Truth's scattered behind the veilAnd then silence leaves me alone
Until I want to ask my own
During a long journey inward
I saw it's not me who pull my wiresRage spreads in my arms
Since God is pulling my wires
I am a plague who's named "fate"
But suffering is my only fameAnd then silence leaves me alone
Until I want to ask my own
During a long journey inward
I saw it's not me who pull my wires
(bis)I saw it's not me who pull my wires
Music & lyrics by : Alyn White McHelly
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03. No one's son
5:32
I found myself on my own again
And my only home is the city's bench
Used to raise my head from all this pain
But in the face of the wall, I see only the shadeThere's in my hands the future I dread
I have left my dreams so far away
Scars on my skin are the only thing I kept
Memories in the sand aren't made to remain
And in my hands, the future will fade
If I can't free myself of my ball-and-chain past
I will walk the road not to be caught
Up by life, but I'll sink in my own void'cause I'm the no one's son and this is my song
Everything passes me by in this blinkered world
And the tears from my eyes are my orphanage
There's nothing that I have, there's nothing I have left
Love is a cage I cannot enter
And no one could ever carry me in his heart
The fetus in his shell
Should have been aborted
To avoid this painThere's in my heart a void I can't fill
Without any forebears, how did I get here?
Where do I've to go now? Utterly neglected
My father didn't build me and my mama didn't want to carry me
I searched for one land to make of it my place
And I found for myself a brand new name
I see through my eyes the world's unfairnesses
And I pity the mankind to follow the drawn road which leads to the lossQuite as a phoenix, I reborn of my ashes
It's only after we've lost everything
That we're free to do anything.
So I take my fate in my hands and I forge ahead
(bis)'cause I'm the no one's son and this is my song
Everything passes me by in this blinkered world
And the tears from my eyes turned to rage
There's nothing that I have, but I'm not held in a cage
I should find Love you said, I do love myself
'cause I understand that nobody can do it well
The fetus in his shell
Will fertilize himself
To be a perfect ain'tI am the No one's son
And this is my fate
With no aim, I roam
That's the curse I am
I'm the no one's son
Nobody cares
To no one, I belong
I don't belong anywhere
I will die alone
Yes someday I may
Want a mom to moan,
Want a mom to regret
I will die alone
Yes someday I may
Want my mom to moan,
Want my mom to regretMusic & lyrics by : Alyn White McHelly
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04. The seven sins
3:56
I am the One, the pride personified
I own the light, you know, it's a big fuckin' vice
I don't really mind and I fuckin' ignore you
The Creation - I'm a great mastermind
You owe me twice, or I roll over the dice
I go without anything, making you pay the price
But what about my fuckin' sumptuousness?
I need the needs, I need something to requireI'm just a lonely one
And I will vomit what I am
A must-be-done thing before the rise :
Fallin' down not to be a slave.Fillin' my belly while emptyin' my balls
Smokin', drinkin', and screwin' above all
I wanna want what my own own doesn't own
The lack of knowledge is a real real fuckin' wound
What if I'm angry? Do you feel this rage?
Sometimes it takes so much effort to turn a page
Wings aren't here to keep feet stiffly on the ground
Whichever the burden holdin' my head downI'm just a lonely one
And I will vomit what I am
A must-be-done thing before the rise :
Fallin' down not to be a slave.What if I'm lazy? What if I fail?
What if I never make it, my master plan?
Sometimes it feels like I'm tightening my chains
I expect that – Amen, I'll sleep when I'm deadI'm just a lonely one
And I will vomit what I am
A must-be-done thing before the rise :
Fallin' down not to be a slave.
And I'm the one, the only one
And I will vomit what I am
A must-be-done thing before the rise :
Fallin' down not to be a slave.Music & lyrics by : Alyn White McHelly
- 05. White 5:48
- 06. Between the Hell and the Heaven 4:32
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07. The stained angel
4:57
Weak, on my knees but I feel that I'm living
Under my skin, the handcuffs' mark is still etched on my wrists
Like a scar of the past which built me and brought me here
It reminds me of what I used to fleeThe noise in my head hushes slowly - Am I dead?
I take a breath, my heart paces once again, oh once again
I can love myself without shame, there's no more blame
Then the real life shall beginDon't relate me to a devil
And don't doom me to wander among impure souls
Please can't you see that I am nothing more than me
Whatever the sins that I've done, I fell to be a stained angelThe world's full of lies, take off your blinkers, understand
The open mind - See each soul's both dark and blank,
Don't despise the one who's not scared to learn life from his past
Won't you be sorry when you're dead?Don't relate me to a devil
And don't doom me to wander among impure souls
Please can't you see that I am nothing more than me
Whatever the sins that I've done, I fell to be a stained angelDon't relate me to a devil
And don't doom me to wander among impure souls
Please can't you see that I am nothing more than me
Whatever the sins that I've done, I fell to be a stained angel
Don't relate me to a devil
And don't doom me to wander among impure souls
Please can't you see that I am nothing more than me
Whatever the sins that I've done, I fell to be a stained angelMusic & lyrics by : Alyn White McHelly
- 08. The hateful eight 4:04
- 09. Running on the edge of a bridge 3:48
- 10. Death utopia 4:03
- 11. Heal Heaven 4:42
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12. November 21st
6:02
I always found myself on my own
Crossing your world as a phantom
Forsaken for being too shy
As a part of the set that you pass byI was an aborted fetus in his shell
And I used to grow up here with my pain
Suffering was my only education
Yours as a counterexample for my ownAnd I'm a father's son
Who learned by himself what is to be a man
I know, he is such a phantom
'Cause he left me when I was a child
I grew up all alone
And I hope I won't hurt your pride
But in my tears, we can see
That I miss you DadI always found myself on my own
I'm used to carrying my pain and it made me strong
But this void is my only one weakness
I can feel no love 'cause I'm hurtlessAnd I'm a father's son
Who learned by himself what is to be a man
I know, he is such a phantom
'Cause he left me when I was a child
There's in my past a void
And in my tears we can see that I miss you Dad
I grew up all alone
And I hope I won't hurt your prideAnd on this night, I cry for the man
Who never knew about his child
And on this night, I cry for the man I am
Who never knew that he was a childAnd I'm a father's son
Who learned by himself what is to be a man
I know, he is such a phantom
'Cause he left me when I was a child
There's in my past a void
And in my tears we can see that I miss you Dad
I grew up all alone
And I hope I won't hurt your pride
And I'm a father's son
Who learned by himself what is to be a man
I know, he is such a phantom
'Cause he left me when I was a child
I grew up all alone
And I hope I won't hurt your pride
And in my tears, we can see
That I miss you DadMusic & lyrics by : Alyn White McHelly
- 13. Shattered dreams 5:01
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14. The fallen's anthem
4:02
Have you ever wondered why
Fate had gone and if there's a God above?
And why the fuck do you feel rise
The Devil in your own?
Did you find yourself alone,
Blinded by the way you used to roam?
Lendin' an ear to those who blame your acts
Use your free will, jumping jack!Why should you behave well
(Wild will, among good and evil)
In this fuckin' mess?
(Wild will, wild will)
Make your own escape
(Wild will, it's the fallen's anthem)
Scarcely featherless
(Just a wild will, wild will)So I leave this fuckin' Heaven
Filled with anger in my heart
If each soul is both dark and blank
I deny lies I used to learn
I put aside absolute purity
Searchin' the truth through my sins
And if I could I'd redo these wrong steps
'cause my mistakes made me who I amWhy should you behave well
(Wild will, among good and evil)
In this fuckin' mess?
(Wild will, wild will)
Make your own escape
(Wild will, it's the fallen's anthem)
Scarcely featherless
(Just a wild will, wild will)(Wild will)
Live with this legacy
Buried deep inside our souls
It feels like a second wind
When you can choose your way to roamWhy should you behave well?
(Wild will, among good and evil)
Scarcely featherless
(Just a wild will, wild will)
Why should you behave well
(Wild will, among good and evil)
In this fuckin' mess?
(Wild will, wild will)
Make your own escape
(Wild will, it's the fallen's anthem)
Scarcely featherless
(Just a wild will, wild will)(Wild will)
Music & lyrics by : Alyn White McHelly






